Oftentimes I find myself reflecting on the past. Starting out with the good memories that I once knew, then taking me straight back to those traumatizing events that I can never seem to get passed. Today I still find myself struggling with the pain that I put my loved ones through while I was out there using every illicit drug I could get my hands on. At the time, I never realized how badly I was hurting myself  with the wrongful decisions that a made. I had a choice get as to whether or not I wanted to use for those many years of hell on earth, but my son,  husband, and parents did not. Nor did they ask to be right in the midst of my horrifying agony. But they were and that’s the part I struggle with immensely.

No one ever wakes up on any given morning with the ambition of becoming an addict. They don’t say to themselves ” I’m going to pop some pills, or shoot some dope and see where it takes me.” An addiction rarely, if ever starts out that way. Generally, in most cases, an addiction emerges as a result of peer pressure, being on prescription pain pills for relatively large period of time, it can be heredity or one begins to experiment with the substance and very quickly becomes addicted. Some of us are born with an addictive personality and that makes us more susceptible of being I influenced by their peers. It doesn’t make us horrible, weak people but if you were to ask certain members of my family they would tell you a whole different story.

Hence what other’s say, I strive each day to be the best that I can be, live my life to the fullest and try to move forward into this new chapter of my life. They say in the N.A. Program that you must forgive yourself entirely before any progress at recovery can be accomplished. That is true but I haven’t made it quite that far just yet. Some wounds need more timeto heal than others. But. One day I will slowly but surelyget to that peaceful place in my life.  Thanks for reading and God bless!

#addiction  #struggles  #hope #serenity #recovery






Good evening everyone and Happy Monday. I was reflecting on this topic last night and I thought to myself, “Hmmm, I know the title of my blog indicates dual recovery an all, but I’m going to share off topic a little anyway, because it’s a compelling post and it will deliver some good vibes on a day that desperately needs it the most.

So, I published a page this morning for “Motivation Monday, asking reader’s what motivates them in life, with an option to share a post. Motivation is highly effective, and has an immense amount of force behind it. Highly successful and recommended for destroying an adverse state of mind. The overall results, the mind will be happy, full of peace and the day will go well.

What motivates me and lights the fire inside of my soul is my son. Then my husband, of course, but my son is my number one. My husband is my rock and my son, well he’s my sonshine, even on a cloudy day and I couldn’t fathom life without either one of them in it.

Early recovery is a crucial period for anyone because you’re still in a fragile state of mind. Mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I have to keep myself in motivation mode at all times, continuously focusing on the important things in my life. My family, my job, my sobriety, along with the well-being of myself. A list that just goes on. Motivation applies to me every day, as it does for most of society. In early recovery, it takes every ounce of effort you have to get through. I used Monday as an example as to how I began this post. But I can say this much, a sober Monday beats an intoxicating Saturday Night by a long shot, any day of the week. I thrive my hardest to make each day count, simply because I remember how it felt when my days use to drown me in agony. Today, I’m living in a whole new chapter and the days are good. Some days are better than other’s but I’m okay with that.

Thanks for anyone who has taken the time to read this post, it means the whole world to me. May God bless each and every one of you. 💙

#MotivationMonday #sobriety #inspired


I achieved a short-term goal of mine yesterday. Yes, I finally created my own blog and I couldn’t be happier. It’s the little things in life that matter the most to me these days, and sometimes, it’s the little things that end up having the most significance. With this blog, I want to utilize my little bit of superpowers to inspire other’s by conveying my hope and encouragement I have to offer -those struggling with addiction, mental health issues, or another similar problem that one could benefit from by sharing my past experiences and valuable insight.

Also, I’m eager to know my fellow bloggers. I have read a considerable amount of posts on WordPress, I enjoyed the variety of topics, and you’re all phenomenal writer’s. They all rocked and I’m pretty that I’ll be spending more time on WordPress than any other social network. Lots of love to each and every one of you and I look forward to seeing all of your upcoming posts.


Acceptance means embracing what is, rather than wishing for what is not. When we accept difficult realities, we are able to discover whatever positive feelings and experiences may be possible in that situation. We find ourselves more at peace and able to experience life more deeply. Even so, acceptancemust be guided by discernment – learning how to tell the difference between what we can and cannot change.

Someone once told me that acceptance to our faults, along with the faults of other’s help us to be patient and avoid hurtful kinds criticism or judgement. By accepting faults, we become more able to trust and celebrate strengths. Learning to accept often leads to growth and understand. I know that it has for me.

“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. The courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

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